I Felt So Alone

I felt so alone and crippled coming from the FLDS lifestyle with nowhere to go and no one to rely on apart from friends who had already done all they could do for me. I found myself at the Draper Police Station with the victims advocate discussing my options of where my twin boys and myself would go. The advocate then began telling me of this amazing organization, Holding Out Help, who helped women in my exact dangerous and desperate situation. I was very hesitant about letting anyone of the world help us, because of what the word, aka the “gentiles,” thought about the FLDS community. With the hope in my heart that there really were people in “the world” that loved unconditionally and wanted to help, I went to this home with nothing but an overnight bag and the three broken scared hearts.

Before we knew it, we found ourselves surrounded by love and support no matter where we came from or what I had done in my life. They provided us with a safe home and very necessary essential items such as love, hope, clothing, food, therapy and legal assistance. Most important to me was they cared for us and had our best interest at heart, which was the most amazing feeling ever.

Shortly after that, I was able to get onto my own two feet in my own place, working and all three of us receiving education, which I had never had in my life because of the lifestyle I was raised in. We are all three very healthy emotionally and physically and living an extremely happy, fulfilling and flourishing life I had never imagined living before leaving my situation. We could have never done this without HELP.